Note to Self: Just Go to Sleep

I hate being up late. I really have no clue as to why I stay up until the wee hours of the evening. Of course, practically having the whole house to myself has its charms but in the end my mind always plays tricks on me.

It's not really the kind of tricks that your mind plays on you when you are a kid such as a monster under your bed or in your closet (although I am still convinced that there was one when I was 6). These kind of tricks are ones that make you think about your future being shrouded in a dark cloud of misery.

It is almost a little game of worry and wish your life away simply because the future is unknown. Lately, I have been doing that a lot.

I am very worried about my future. Probably because my time in college is shrinking by the second.

I worry about finding a job after I receive my diploma and teacher's certification. I also worry about being able to find a coaching job that I am successful at and is rewarding at the same time once I am out on my own.

I am also worried about the futures of others and if all of their hard work will lead them to success even after I am gone. I have seen growth and greatness so far. But, my only worry (which is selfish I will admit) is that it will cease to exist when those who have helped them to achieve that greatness are no longer a part of the picture.

Right now, I see my future as what I would like it to be and it looks very bright indeed. But I also know that there is no guarantee which causes me to worry even more. I have found happiness in this life but I am very much afraid that it will be taken away from me like a child who is forced to share his toys.

I guess that it is the perfect time for me to write a little note to myself.

At night, the world seems like a dark and scary place probably just because the sun has set. So when I worry and think too much, I should just go to sleep and pray for things to work out for the best.

That is, if sleep is even possible with all of this worry that currently exists inside of me.

Back from Kentucky

I have returned once again! This time, I took a fishing trip with some of my friends to Kentucky Lake near Murray State University. I had a wonderful time but as always I was happy to return to Indiana.

As with any road trip, there is plenty of time for the conversation to cover a wide range of subjects to say the least. Among them was what life has been like for many after college.

What I found interesting was how similar many of the stories were. It seems as if there are a lot of people out there who are trying to move way too fast after they receive their degrees.

From the stories that I heard, the typical way of thinking has become, "Well, I put up with college and now I must be rewarded with a high-paying, high-power position among the elites of our society."

As if it is a right of passage, the entry-level position just does not seem as good as it used to be for some. Instead of wanting to start at the bottom and work our way up, many are wanting to start at the top.

Though I do not discourage a person's strong ambition or lack of wanting to settle for the first job that comes a person's way, I feel that this entry level work is necessary and those who are wanting to start at the top are reaching way too high too early.

I think that doing the little things that people do not want to do (sorting the mail, getting the coffee, etc.) is something that we must all go through. Unless we are those select few who were born into those wealthy families in which everything is planned out for us, we must be willing to climb the mountain instead of taking a helicopter to the summit.

I think that you should aim to get the best job that suits you but I think there is a fine line between wanting the best out there and being just plain ignorant about how far a degree can take you when you first enter the workplace.

Even though many of these people are looking forward to getting their feet wet at very high positions in the work world, it is my belief that they will not be prepared to do so without doing the "muck" work first.

Without it, I believe that instead of wet feet, they will be in way over their heads and be drowned with burnout within the first few years of their cozy upper-level position.

Without a Map or a Flashlight

Today, President George W. Bush warned the incoming Democrat-controlled Congress about spending.

In his opinion piece that he submitted to the Wall Street Journal, "Bush warned that the Democrat-controlled Congress risks stalemate if it resorts to 'politics as usual' and tries to 'pass bills that are simply political statements.'"

I find this to be quite interesting that the President is talking about spending when he has turned the country's biggest government surplus into the biggest deficit within the last 6 years.

Moreover, it is equally shocking that our President would even think about talking about legislative stalemates when he has tried to divide Americans on the core issues that we all care about - faith, family, and the future.

It is up to all of us as Democrats, Republicans, and Americans to get this country back on the right track. Only we will be able to improve this country because our chief executive is still wandering aimlessly through the woods without a map or a flashlight.

My Finals, My Future

It is the last night before finals week begins. As is customary, I am up late delaying the sleep which will make my first exam come sooner than I wish.

Of course, my mind is a little bit concerned about the subject of my first final although not too mcuh. Despite it being unlike it any class that I have ever taken, the class will definitely help me in my future career.

However, other subjects are keeping my eyelids from shutting. Mostly, I have just been pondering questions about the past and how my future could have been so much different.

The details of these questions are pretty personal so I will not mention them but it is interesting to think about them every now and then. Would I have been different? Would I have been the same person that I am now? Would I have the same interests, hopes, dreams, and thoughts?

All that I know is that I am ready to do what I was meant to do. Right now, I am in a tough place. It seems that as soon as you know what you want to do with the rest of your life, you want the rest of your life to begin as soon as possible.

I know for sure that I am capable of doing the tasks that will await me when I enter the real world. These past few years, I have learned that no single letter is a measurement of a person. Why are we judged by just one letter?

Much focus has been given to these kind of achievements instead of a person's ability to work hard and better themselves. Even though, I have figured this out, I wish that some of the people would do the same.

When I read a book, I am not concerned with just one letter. I am concerned with the words and sentences that the letters make up, the ideas presented, and the message that it presents. I wish to see people the same way by looking at every aspect of themselves and not limiting myself to one aspect (or letter) of their personality.