Tough Day

After today, I have decided that I really need to stop making so many ignorant jokes when talking with people; especially when they come to me with a problem that they are having trouble with.

This very thing confronted me today which led to the toughest day that I have ever had as a substitute teacher.

I was supposed to discuss a topic that is a very difficult topic to say the least with a health class this afternoon. Myself, I did not feel that I was qualified to lead a discussion over such a difficult topic with young people.

Because of this, I sought professional advice from anyone that I could find or talk to. Some really helped me which I appreciated. Others tried to lighten the situation by offering a joke. I know that they were just trying to make me feel better about it but, for me, it was a time when I really needed some "professional advice."

In the end, I deviated from the written lesson plan after discussing it with another person within the health/phys. ed. department who I hold a tremendous amount of respect for. It has been the one time that I have not followed the exact details of the substitute lesson plan provided for me. The rest of the day was very good and every other class went well but even now I am still bothered by my decision.

I still feel very rotten about what I did. For that one class, I did not follow what was specified. My main goal in life is to give my very best in everything that I do every day and I just don't think that today was one of those days. I guess the best thing that I can do is just move on and accept whatever happens.

I am just glad that my blog was able to listen.