Not Living Up to Expectations

I apologize for not doing a better job of blogging lately. It has been a rough couple of days for me and I mostly have been trying to find time just to get away from everything.

The Labor Day festivities were a good time. It's always nice to see friendly faces and like minded people when on the campaign trail. It was funny because a lot of people thought that I had spent some time on a lake considering my arms were a little burnt/tanned.

I love campaigning and meeting people but there are sometime when I start to doubt myself. Just when things seem to be going well, it seems as if I am not able to live up to expectations.

I guess that is my biggest fear of all - not living up to others expectations of me. Of course, I am reminded of my childhood teachings of one should only do something only for self-satisfaction and personal growth.

Lately, I am coming to believe that the person who said this never really did anything in life. Whether we like it or not, others have expectations of us. Whether or not we live up to them is to be decided by these people.

I know that I am supposed to do things only for myself but the fear of doing a bad job and letting others down is what drives me. I just wish I knew where I stood instead of always having to find creative ways to find out as if I am conducting a secret poll or something.